Yes, Chef :)

欲罷不能，我大概搞錯了，種種跡象顯示，我不止愛上了Chef，我愛上了李善均。

否則，我就不會去土豆網看那部2009年陰暗的韓國電影「坡洲」，本來描寫姐夫愛上小姨然後姐姐離奇死於非命的故事有點看頭，奈何節奏超慢，更不喜歡無精打采的李善均（他卻憑此片得了個西班牙影帝！）。

然後瞟了另一部喜劇「浪漫島嶼」兩眼，李善均飾演正經八百的CEO，髮型跟「坡洲」和「咖啡皇子一號店」一樣的大叔！

然後再在網上購買了臺灣出版的「Pasta 」DVD，方便看完再看!

Chef 表情多多，古靈精怪，大男人卻怕入情關，劇中人在意大利長大，脾氣真的有點像我以前的意大利人老闆，都是動不動就發神經！孔孝真樣子不漂亮，但卻是一個名副其實的演技派，演活那個除Chef以外，任何男人都看不上眼的徐宥京，總是甜甜的答「Yes, Chef」，因爲二人產生的化學作用很成功，令收視率飆升，本來16集的「Pasta」因此而延長四集。

劇中很多話中有玄機的曖昧對白，例如Chef 對笨笨的需宥京說：「料理是活的，應該要隨時隨地誘惑刀叉。但你現在所做的料理還不會誘惑刀叉就只是單相思～別只顧著單相思，也試著去誘惑一下～」（暗說徐宥京對他是一廂情願，必須發力試試去勾引勾引他才成。）

http://blog.roodo.com/weichun_926/archives/11479885.html  
http://blog.roodo.com/weichun_926/archives/11583137.html   

我在一個名叫「就怕玩不夠世界」的博客，可以找到 全部20集我最喜歡的精彩部部分：

第1集：「妳沒談過戀愛吧！來談吧！和我！」
http://blog.yam.com/tsuba35/article/27931023

第9集：「妳喜歡Pasta？還是喜歡我？」
http://blog.yam.com/tsuba35/article/27236340  

第10集：「妳要是從我的菜板走下來就死定！」Chef 連示愛都叫人死定！
http://blog.yam.com/tsuba35/article/27256000

第14集：巴士站
http://blog.yam.com/tsuba35/article/27400656

第15集：「徐宥京喜歡我是事實，可是我呢，也愛著徐宥京！」這可是我其中最愛的場景！
http://blog.yam.com/tsuba35/article/27448619  

第19集：「謝謝妳這執著的小笨蛋！」
http://blog.yam.com/tsuba35/article/27684875

第20集：「妳沒談過戀愛吧！別總是看人臉色，談戀愛吧！和我！」很好的首尾相應，相識在馬路交界處，最後在老地方確認了互相的重要性。http://blog.yam.com/tsuba35/article/27766148

現實苦嗎？覺得苦的時候就看Chef 和金魚來調劑調劑吧。

他沒說不愛她



2011年4月20日的明報副刊，請按滑鼠便可以閲讀放大版本。

最後那一句是真的，正如您沒有說不愛我。

Pasta

2010年韓劇「Pasta」在臺灣名叫「料理絕配」，最近在香港播出，改名叫「意麵情迷」，以下是其中兩個粉絲在博客討論劇情：

http://fenfen0615.pixnet.net/blog/post/25634758

http://mytvidea.pixnet.net/blog/post/32243841

3月12日周末賦閑在家，看了第六集的「Pasta 」（通常賦閑在家就有大發現！），因爲「我的廚房沒有女人」，單純可愛又倔強的意大利餐廳廚房助理徐宥京（孔孝珍）被新來的刀子嘴豆腐心的躁狂主廚崔賢旭（李善均）解雇，二人由本來鬥嘴到越來越曖曖昧昧，女的義無反顧、勇往直前的愛Chef，連英俊善解人意、默默守候自己三年的「仙人掌先生」金燦都不要，男的後來為了堂堂正正愛小金魚連工作丟了都在所不惜。

剛過去的周末不分晝夜挑他倆的對手戲來看，李善均 在Pasta裏面飾演的Chef 特別「形英帥靚正」，上網查找他其他的作品卻都有點「跌watt 」，跟那次「巴黎戀人」愛上劇中人韓啓株社長一樣，我愛上Chef ，卻沒有愛上李善均。

愛上「Pasta」、愛上Chef，我希望愛我的人可以像Chef ，也希望自己可以像徐宥京愛一樣義無反顧地去愛，然而我知道當時我們都沒有那樣的權利！相愛應該是甜的、義無反顧的，但Timing不對，對象不對，愛得多深又可以有怎樣的指望？

因爲「明知不可為而為之」與「義無反顧」就如「情」與「義」是雙對的，後者包含「承諾」、「值得」和「堂堂正正」，不能正大光明的愛可以有多值得？明知不可為而為之的激情可以浪漫多久又有多值得？

到頭來，愛得夠不夠已經無關！

If You Forget Me - Pablo Neruda

I want you to know

one thing.

You know how this is:

if I look

at the crystal moon, at the red branch

of the slow autumn at my window,

if I touch

near the fire

the impalpable ash

or the wrinkled body of the log,

everything carries me to you,

as if everything that exists,

aromas, light, metals,

were little boats

that sail

toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,

if little by little you stop loving me

I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly

you forget me

do not look for me,

for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,

the wind of banners

that passes through my life,

and you decide

to leave me at the shore

of the heart where I have roots,

remember

that on that day,

at that hour,

I shall lift my arms

and my roots will set off

to seek another land.

But

if each day,

each hour,

you feel that you are destined for me

with implacable sweetness,

if each day a flower

climbs up to your lips to seek me,

ah my love, ah my own,

in me all that fire is repeated,

in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,

my love feeds on your love, beloved,

and as long as you live it will be in your arms

without leaving mine

A小姐告訴我去年您家終於香燈有繼了，B小姐告訴我您請她參加兒子的百日宴，C小姐某天清晨上班時，在居所樓下碰到您，才知道您最近搬了家.....

當我必須從別人身上才能知道您的消息，就表示我跟您已經沒有「關係」了，我竟然想問您為甚麽不告訴我！？

我們不是朋友嗎？我們比朋友關係複雜，天知地知您知我知那樣子繼續下去是「應該「有害的，所以「注定」到頭來只能「變得」比朋友疏離。

好像除了我以外，全世界都很滿意這樣的安排。

「犀利人妻」 經典語錄

1. 人生是要愈來愈安定，而不是越來越任性！

2. 紅粉知己總比小三容易解決。

3. 男人只有在兩個時候會充滿鬥志：一是受迫害、二是談戀愛。

4. 不能消滅狐狸精的女人不是好女人，不能保護老公的人妻不是好人妻。

5. 做人啊，是退一步海闊天空；但婚姻呢，是退一步人去樓空。

6. 在愛情世界裡，不被愛的那個才是第三者。

7. 你說你不是個隨便的人，沒想到你隨便起來，根本就不是人。


8. 出來玩就要拿得起放得下，如果放不下，就千萬不要想要拿起來。


9. 拿得起放得下！相愛的時候用力去愛，不愛的時候瀟灑轉身離開。


10. 安慰？我看是慰安吧!

據說電視劇「犀利人妻」剛在臺灣播完，講的是老公有婚外情的故事，電視劇尚未看，但它的一些對白有意思。http://ay5627.pixnet.net/blog/post/34088527

Melissa Horn - Hanna

Sure there are days that I can be nice and pretend that requires
And of course there are days that it can hurt to see you fall around here


There was a love but it has burnt out
You got too much of my life, I could not breathe in the end


You say you remember and that it feels like yesterday
But it was too long ago to even remember


And here I thought I was there, I have started again
I know when I see you, where have you gone


I gave up long ago
I gave up long ago


You are left with the same people, still with the same man
Lives on in the same pond, and you go in the same clothes
Will be glad of the same intoxication as a lie in good weather in an abandoned house


It is playing with fire when you pull it up here again
For you see in my eyes, I disappeared for a long time ago


There is no one to please, nothing to declare
Nothing to defend, I gave up long ago


I gave up long ago

Melissa Horn 是個80後的瑞典女歌手，第一次在Youtube聽到Hanna，先是被她的樣子吸引，然後是歌曲的intro，在網上找來中文翻譯歌詞，部分竟然有些像我的心聲。

其實到頭來，愛未有燃燒到盡頭，I gave up long ago只是提醒自己應該早就放棄。

因爲您早就放棄了。

大陸國家地震局嚴正公告

1. 今年到後年，不震就不震，震了就震了，震多少級，震後才知道，震多少次，震後會告訴大家，請大家放心！
2. 害怕的就出去睡，不害怕的就在家裏睡，並保持正常生活秩序，不要沒事瞎傳謠言，搞的我們也好恐怖！
3. 儘快把多餘的房子賣掉，地震來了才知道，不動產原來也會動的，而且動起來嚇死人！
4. 防震應有的常識：
1. 初一在家睡，十五在帳篷睡，因為躲得過初一躲不過十五！
2. 可以出家當和尚，但不能睡在廟裏，因為跑得了和尚跑不了廟！
3. 買房子要麼選一樓，要麼選頂樓，一樓逃的快，頂樓被挖出來快！
5. 大家不要擔心日本核電站的輻射，這麼多年來，我們吃三聚氰胺奶粉、毒大米，喝地溝油是為了什麼呀？就是在下一場生化戰爭中活下來啊！不要害怕，不要擔心，就當一場日光浴好了。況且，我們來到這個世上，就沒打算活著回去！
6. 有人咋呼說擔心核輻射，嚷嚷著要吃碘，我看沒必要先吃蘿蔔淡操心，敵敵畏蘇丹紅三聚氰胺你身體裏哪一樣沒有？把你劈碎了攤地上就是一張元素週期表，還吃什麼碘？
7. 最近出現搶鹽風潮，是讓國人集體丟臉，在此呼籲大家真的不要瘋狂搶鹽。轉達中央發的對聯，上聯是「日本大核民族」，下聯是「中國鹽荒子孫」，橫批為「有碘意思」。
8. 我們不要：「日本人地震沒死，海嘯沒死，核輻射沒死，結果當聽說中國人瘋搶食用鹽後，全部笑死了！」
9. 世上最痛苦的是什麼？輻射來了，鹽沒了；世上最最痛苦的是什麼？輻射來了，吃鹽沒用；世上最最最痛苦的是什麼？輻射沒來，鹽買太多了；世上最最最最痛苦是什麼？人都死了，鹽還沒用完」。
10. 中央如再有新的指示，隨時公告。

The 48 Laws of Power

記得我買下這本Robert Greene 的書的那天，是去參加社團朋友的婚宴，那時您還在我身邊，我還跟您提過權力的第一條法則，然後卻沒有繼續看。

現在我該翻來看看。

Szerelem, Szerelem - The English Patient, Soundtrack - Marta Sebestyen, Gabriel Yared

O, love love
accursed torture
why did you not blossom
on every treetop?
On the top of every tree,
on the leaf of a walnut tree,
so every maiden and unmarried young man
would have plucked it.
Because I too plucked it
and I let it slip away.
I too plucked it
and I let it slip away.
O, I would pluck one again
if I found a good one,
if I found a good one, a beautiful one,
my old lover.
And for my old lover
what wouldn't I do?
I would skim the water
from the sea with a spoon.
From the bottom of the sea
I would gather small pearls
and for my old loverI would braid a wreath of pearls



電影「別問我是誰」（The English Patient)是其中一部我最喜歡的電影，因爲喜歡，所以才電影的音樂專輯也買下。
印象最深刻的當然是有匈牙利女歌星Marta Sebestyen的Szerelem, Szerelem選段的主題歌。

男人最怕

2011年4月6日的明報副刊，請按滑鼠便可以閲讀放大版本。

無懼風雨 / 雨ニモマケズ / Ame ni mo Makezu

傷逝

不能忘記，我們看過的戲，
只好忘記，你的樣子，
不想回憶，你當年的地址，
只好逃離，那城市，
對你的感情只能選擇堅持，
和你的關係只好換個方式，
比如說打個電話說電視，
說不到，心事。

我們戴著誰的戒指，
代表著妥協還是固執，
銘心刻骨，已成爲歷史，
敵不過無名指，HÁ HÁ
我已不能再擁抱你，
愛一個人是多麽奢侈，
那幸福喜宴還沒開始，
這離別的悲劇已成往事，
愛你不為往事。

不能忘記，相識一九八一，
只好忘了，一九九一，
一九九一 ，我們到此爲止，
得到回憶，失去你，
對你的感情只能選擇堅持，
和你的關係只好換個方式，
那人言可畏也只能將愛人，
逼成了，知己。

這離別的悲劇已成往事，
愛你不為往事。

愛您，真的不為往事！？

女人的自卑

2011年3月31日明報副刊。按滑鼠一下便可閲讀放大版本。

做生意

2011年3月28日東方日報副刊，請按滑鼠一下便可閲讀放大版本。

I'll Be Back - 2PM

http://wooyoungjam.pixnet.net/blog/post/19026819

我不懂韓語，但很喜歡這首歌，周末聼了有30次吧！

因爲它包含您和我想說的不同的I'll Be Back。您說的 I'll Be Back是回到社團，得到應有的重視，恭喜您如願以償，更上一層樓了。我說的I'll Be Back是一方面跟您一樣，希望更上一層樓，更重要的是想您囘到我身邊。

我放您走，卻一直希望您會回來。

I’ll be back 넌 다시 나를 찾을 거야. 그때 다시 내가 올 거야. 그 누구도 너를 나보다 사랑 할 순 없기에. You’ll be back 너는 다시 돌아 올 거야 그래서 널 보내는 거야 나는 알아 네가 나 없인 못산단 것을 I’ll be back.

I'll be back，你會再找我的，到那時我會回來的，因為沒有人比我更愛你， You'll be back， 你一定會回來的，所以我才放你走，我知道，你沒有我不行， I'll be back。

30.03.2011 才發現到3月25日就已經兩年！

安全分手

原載於2011年3月23日明報副刊，按滑鼠便可閲讀放大版本。 分手的學問，其實您從來沒有當面跟我分手，心理學角度來說，那儀式沒有進行，我和您並沒有好好說再見。

我們本就是生化戰爭的存活者

2011年3月23日明報副刊。

禮讓

2011年3月23日東方日報副刊。

罵人的藝術 - 梁實秋

古今中外沒有一個不罵人的人。罵人就是有道德觀念的意思，因為在罵人的時候，至少在罵人者自己總覺得那人有該罵的地方。何者該罵，何者不該罵，這個抉擇的標准，是極道德的。所以根本不罵人，大可不必。罵人是一種發洩感情的方法，尤其是那一種怨怒的感情。想罵人的時候而不罵，時常在身體上弄出毛病，所以想罵人時，罵罵何妨。

但是，罵人是一種高深的學問，不是人人都可以隨便試的。有因為罵人挨嘴巴的，有因為罵人吃官司的，有因為罵人反被人罵的，這都是不會罵人的原故。今以研究所得，公諸同好，或可為罵人時之一助乎？

（一）知己知彼

罵人是和動手打架一樣的，你如其敢打人一拳，你先要自己忖度下，你吃得起別人的一拳否。這叫做知己知彼。罵人也是一樣。譬如你罵他是“屈死”，你先要反省，自己和“屈死”有無分別。你罵別人荒唐，你自己想想曾否吃喝嫖賭。否則別人回敬你一二句，你就受不了。所以別人有著某種短處，而足下也正有同病，那麽你在罵他的時候只得割愛。

（二）無罵不如己者

要罵人須要挑比你大一點的人物，比你漂亮一點的或者比你壞得萬倍而比你得勢的人物總之，你要罵人，那人無論在好的一方面或壞的一方面都要能勝過你，你才不吃虧的。你罵大人物，就怕他不理你，他一回罵，你就算罵著了。在壞的一方面勝過你的，你罵他就如教訓一般，他既便回罵，一般人仍不會理會他的。假如你罵一個無關痛養的人，你越罵他他越得意，時常可以把一個無名小卒罵出名了，你看冤與不冤？

（三）適可而止

罵大人物罵到他回罵的時候，便不可再罵；再罵則一般人對你必無同情，以為你是無理取鬧。罵小人物罵到他不能回罵的時候，便不可再罵；再罵下去則一般人對你也必無同情，以為你是欺負弱者。

（四）旁敲側擊

他偷東西，你罵他是賊；他搶東西，你罵他是盜，這是笨伯。罵人必須先明虛實掩映之法，須要烘托旁襯，旁敲側擊，於要緊處只一語便得，所謂殺人於咽喉處著刀。越要罵他你越要原諒他，即便說些恭維話亦不為過，這樣的罵法才能顯得你所罵的句句是真實確鑿，讓旁人看起來也可見得你的度量。

（五）態度鎮定

罵人最忌浮躁。一語不合，面紅筋跳，暴躁如雷，此灌夫罵座，潑婦罵街之術，不足以罵人。善罵者必須態度鎮靜，行若無事。普通一般罵人，誰的聲音高便算誰佔理，誰來得勢猛便算誰罵贏，惟真善罵人者，乃能避其而擊其懈。你等他罵得疲倦的時候，你只消輕輕的回敬他一句，讓他再狂吼一陣。在他暴躁不堪的時候，你不妨對他冷笑幾聲，包管你不費力氣，把他氣得死去活來，罵得他針針見血。

（六）出言典雅

罵人要罵得微妙含蓄，你罵他一句要使他不甚覺得是罵，等到想過一遍才慢慢覺悟這句話不是好話，讓他笑著的面孔由白而紅，由紅而紫，由紫而灰，這才是罵人的上乘。欲達到此種目的，深刻之用詞故不可少，而典雅之言詞尤為重要。言詞典雅則可使聽者不致刺耳。如要罵人罵得典雅，則首先要在罵時萬萬別提起女人身上的某一部分，萬萬不要涉及生理學範圍。罵人一罵到生理學範圍以內，底下再有甚麽話都不好說了。譬如你罵某甲，千萬別提起他的令堂令妹。因為那樣一來，便無是非可言，並且你自己也不免有令堂令妹，他若回敬起來，豈非勢均力敵，半斤八兩？再者罵人的時候，最好不要加人以種種難堪的名詞，稱呼起來總要客氣，即使他是極卑鄙的小人，你也不妨稱他先生，越客氣，越罵得有力量。罵得時節最好引用他自己的詞句，這不但可以使他難堪，還可以減輕他對你罵的力量。俗話少用，因為俗話一覽無遺，不若典雅古文曲折含蓄。

（七）以退為進

兩人對罵，而自己亦有理屈之處，則處于開罵伊始，特宜注意，最好是毅然將自己理屈之處完全承認下來，即使道歉認錯均不妨事。先把自己理屈之處輕輕遮掩過去，然后你再重整旗鼓，著著逼人，方可無後顧之憂。即使自己沒有理屈的地方，也絕不可自行誇張，務必要謙遜不遑，把自己的位置降到一個不可再降的位置，然後罵起人來，自有一種公正光明的態度。否則你罵他一兩句，他便以你個人的事反唇相譏，一場對罵，會變成兩人私下口角，是非曲直，無從判斷。所以罵人者自己要低聲下氣，此所謂以退為進。

（八）預設埋伏

你把這句話罵過去，你便要想想看，他將用甚麽話罵回來。有眼光的罵人者，便處處留神，或是先將他要罵你的話替他說出來，或是預先安設埋伏，令他罵回來的話失去效力。他罵你的話，你替他說出來，這便等於繳了他的械一般。預設埋伏，便是在要攻擊你的地方，你先輕輕的按下話根，然后他罵過來就等於槍彈打在沙包上，不能中傷。

（九）小題大做

如對方有該罵之處，而題目身小，不值一罵，或你所知不多，不足一罵，那時節你便可用小題大做的方法，來擴大題目。先用誠懇而懷疑的態度引申對方的意思，由不緊要之點引到大題目上去，處處用嚴謹的邏輯逼他說出不邏輯的話來，或是逼他說出合於邏輯但不合乎理的話來，然後你再大舉罵他，罵到體無完膚為止，而原來惹動你的小題目，輕輕一提便了。

（十）遠交近攻

一個時侯，只能罵一個人，或一種人，或一派人。決不宜多樹敵。所以罵人的時侯，萬勿連累旁人，即時必須牽涉多人，你也要表示好意，否則回罵之聲分紛至沓來，使你無從應付。

罵人的藝術，一時所能想起來的有上面十條，信手拈來，並無條理。我做此文的用意，是助人罵人。同時也是想把罵人的技術揭破一點，供愛罵人者參考。挨罵的人看看，罵人的心理原來是這樣的，也算是揭破一張黑幕給你瞧瞧！

真的，我真的想知道如何可以文雅地含血噴人！

Love Love Love - Dreams Come True

311日本地震以後，每天都在擔心，擔心日本的朋友。

如果愛真的可以戰勝一切，希望在這裡以Dreams Come True 吉田美和的代表作Love Love Love, 替日本打打氣。

日本加油！

得失榮辱

2010年11月30日東方日報副刊 。

得失榮辱四個字令我想起一件事，請先看一下數個按日期遠近排列的電郵：

Wed, 3/16/11,
From: Florence

Date: Wednesday, March 16, 2011, 12:51 AM

Dear Mr A

I've sent Ms B a SMS on 14 March 2011 at 1:52pm, saying: "Dear Ms B, please read Mr A's email sent on 10 Mar. He needs your support to contact C Organisation. Thanks. Florence" I sent a SMS because Ms B has been busy with a current event.

I'm sorry if the above sounds like a chaser.

Florence

Tue, 3/15/11,
A wrote:
Date: Tuesday, March 15, 2011, 6:46 PM

Private and Confidential

Dear Florence, I love you for all your enthusiasm, but please note that this whole idea about doing Event X was initiated by Ms B for me. Please communicate with me and my team on anything to do with this as B was unhappy to receive a chaser from you regarding to the Event X. I am actually drafting a letter for Ms B to forward to C Organisation.

With Best Regards,
A

相信沒有人會相信我看完電郵會哭起來吧？

話説來屆領導人A先生苦思年度大會舉行地點之際，跟我同一社團的B女士建議他來我們的小城，說可以代爲聯繫某政府部門C，申請贊助，後來我答應擔任A先生來屆其中一個地區秘書，知道他們商量過，3月10日A先生透過電郵，告訴B女士他決定發信給C部門，3月14日，眼見B女士未有答覆，便用手提電話發了一個短訊給她。

然後我就收到了一個擡頭寫 Private & Confiedential 的電郵（綠色部分），既然叫Private & Confidential 為甚麽A先生還要cc 自己的私人助理和其他兩個地區秘書？！這是我在服務社團裏面20年來第一次收到的公司Memo般的電郵，它的確像Memo，因爲我從來未有見過cc其他人的電郵會有Private & Confidential。

那晚怒不可遏，無法入睡，索性起來把現屆領導人要求的文稿儘快做妥。

實在覺得不可理喻，將以上電郵發了給30為圈内圈外的朋友，問：Does my SMS sound like a chaser? 結果九成人說不像，就算是chaser，都是有禮貌的，說短訊本來就該快而準，繁文縟節可免則免，有人提醒我該顧及收訊人的脾性。

A先生是名門望族CEO，B女士是本地退休高官，恍然大悟！所以我就收到Memo!!! (大叫)

又再證明服務社團鼓吹的人人平等是狗屁，如果平等，何以A先生在電郵裏的語調一如平日的CEO模式？B女士若真不喜歡我的短訊，大可以打電話給我罵我，她跟我屬於同一個社團，我們是團友！然而她選擇了去向A先生大興問罪，結果我收到一張Memo。

我很洩氣，想起到底我為一些甚麽人服務，但我不會煞有介事的向B女士問個究竟，她本來就是個急性子的人，天下間會叫她不快的實在星羅棋佈，只是A先生連向我求證都沒有就發Memo，無話可説。

GREAT leaders don't sweat small stuff。我知道我將要為甚麽人服務了，還是留點氣力，好戲在後頭。

沒有長不大的女孩

2011年3月9日明報副刊。

真的沒有長不大的女孩嗎？

記得2009年7月下旬，您帶我去城中的著名餐廳吃燭光晚飯，坐在向海的位置，您說我點的白酒太甜，飯後還嚷著要去吃糖水，翌日大清早您要到機場接她，怕您累壞，我要您回家。

您走了一年有多的日子裏，我沒有長大，如果我長大了，我應該會學懂自私一點，可以任性的時候任性一點。如果我長大了，我就不會總是想念您。

愛您，跟長大不長大無關。

Not Going Anywhere at The End of May

This is why I always wonder, I'm a pond full of regrets
I always try to not remember rather than forget
This is why I always whisper when vagabonds are passing by
I tend to keep myself away from their goodbyes

Tide will rise and fall along the bay
And I'm not going anywhere, I'm not going anywhere
People come and go and walk away
But I'm not going anywhere, I'm not going anywhere

This is why I always whisper, I'm a river with a spell
I like to hear but not to listen, I like to say but not to tell
This is why I always wonder, there's nothing new under the sun
I won't go anywhere so give my love to everyone

Tide will rise and fall along the bay
And I'm not going anywhere, I'm not going anywhere
People come and go and walk away
But I'm not going anywhere, I'm not going anywhere

Close your eyes and roll a dice, under the board, there's a compromise.
If, after all, we only live twice, which life's the run road to paradise ?

Don't say a word, here comes the break of the day
And wide clouds of sand raised by the wind of the end of May

Close your eyes and make a bet, face to the glare of the sunset.
This is about as far as we get, you haven't seen me disguised yet.

Don't say a word, here comes the break of the day
And wide clouds of sand raised by the wind of the end of May

Close your eyes and make a wish, under the stone, there's a stonefish.
Hold your breath then, roll the dice.
It might lead the run road to paradise.

Don't say a word, here comes the break of the day
And wide clouds of sand raised by the wind of the end...
Don't say a word, here comes the break of the day
And wide clouds of sand raised by the wind of the end of May.

偶然發現Keren Ann，她作品 Not Going Anywhere 和 End of May有我的心聲。

告訴我這個人來人往的世界上還有甚麽地方我可以去？我那裏都不想去算是妥協嗎？如果人可以活兩次，那一條道兒通往幸福去？

如果您無法告訴我更無打算理我就別管我吧。

4 情書

來自2011年2月15日明報副刊。

許驥的好文章。

3 過客

來自2011年2月15日明報副刊。

許驥的好文章。

2 分手

來自2011年2月15日明報副刊。

許驥的好文章，好得像您要對我說的一樣。

1 緣緣

來自2011年2月15日明報副刊。

許驥的好文章 。

最大的敵人

2011年3月6日東方日報副刊。

Gone

I won't wake up To the sound of your feet
Walking down the hall
Like a soft heartbeat
I won't wake up
Cause by the time that
I do you'll be gone
I won't look back
On a past so long
I won't look back
On the things gone wrong
I won't look back
Cause by the time that
I do you'll be gone
I won't have words
I've said all that there is to say
I won't have words
Cause I know you'll just throw them away
I won't have words
Cause by the time that
I do you'll be gone
By the time that
I do you'll be gone
By the time that
I do you'll be gone

您走了，三月七日就有一年四個月。

您走了以後，原來我的靈魂還是不時在那裏徘徊。

每次經過您從前等我的地方，腦海中您站在那裏等我的樣子就會閃過，站在車旁，邊看文件邊等我，歷歷在目，當時我就應該站在遠方慢慢欣賞一下子才走到您身邊。

「請勿超越黃缐！Please stand behind the yellow line!」

「心情歡樂同歌唱，基督得勝，基督為皇，基督皇權永無量！」

最愛和最恨

2011年3月1日明報副刊。

男人如何想女人

2011年2月25日明報副刊。

取得女人信任

2011年2月23日明報副刊。

Welcome Back to the Team!

Dear E

How are you?

"How are you?" was the only question you asked me when I met you. I was told to join the function (right before Chinese New Year) and I was expected to reply before 7 Feb 2011 (right after Chinese New Year).

"How are you?" is an ordinary ice breaking question people mostly say to long time no see people or people they meet for the first time. They don't really mean anything and nobody would expect an answer different from "Fine. Thank you" - the standardized answer according to English grammar as well as etiquette. You didn't even look at me ONCE while you were making your presentation although I was sitting right in front of your podium.

I realized after all I'm an uninvited guest in your life. What can I expect from people when I'm an intruder? Sounds fair enough.

Yes, you TOLD me and you WANT me to get rid of you from my life. I've already given up the idea of having you loving me in return. I just haven't let go.

Welcome back to the Team!

以上是我2月17日清晨因爲心有不甘，越想越氣，涕淚連連而給您發的電郵，早上辦公時間您來電，您說您無法反駁。

提到反駁就是想反駁了吧，您想要反駁甚麽？

我說我從來不喜歡做不速之客，結果我還是做了，世上還又有甚麽比成爲自己所愛眼中的不速之客更好受的嗎？

人生如此

27.11.2007
沒有你　再不必有愛　愚弄孤單中的我
沒有愛　也不必有我　留在大地上折磨
佔有過　更損失得多　仿佛有循環因果
追憶　總比平凡易過

沒試過　那知真正愛　無力再轉送別人
沒愛過　那知真正痛　原來面上沒傷痕
我愛過　跌得多麼深　痛得多麼的放任
承受了　令人亂了性的心

人生如此　誰人心中不寂寞　偏偏找不到比我更自覺
人生如此　誰人心中不寂寞　我卻要盡情共你去捕捉　
這種感覺

沒試過　那知真正愛　無力再轉送別人
沒愛過　那知真正痛　原來面上沒傷痕
我愛過　跌得多麼深　痛得多麼的放任
承受了　令人亂了性的心

一世的錯　為了一次的對　為了不完全的故事
再愛你　卻比終生不愛容易
一世的冷　為了一次的暖 　為了一串舊事
你笑我　笑我天生只有癡
無奈愛你　只得一次

可有聼過柴單和柴雙兩兄妹的故事？這首歌跟他們有關，他們各自的愛情故事，還有妹妹只愛哥哥的故事。

上面有原來上載到這裡的日期，由第一次聼，到今天聼，人生還不是如此？

難道聼了，變得響往，潛移默化，成就如此？

情人節的晚上

2011年2月15日明報副刊。

Someone Like You

I heard that you're settled down.
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

You'd know how the time flies.
Only yesterday was the time of our lives.
We were born and raised in a summery haze.
Bound by the surprise of our glory days.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over yet.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead".

Nothing compares, no worries or cares.
Regret's and mistakes they're memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"

Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

真的，歌曲真的像我的心聲，特別是今天，我才發現自己已經變成您的不速之客！

忽然想起您

原載於2011年2月1日明報副刊。

I Don't Miss You Anymore

I don't miss you anymore

Unless the moonlight's great

Or on a starry night

I just might miss you

A little bit

I don't miss you anymore

Unless it's a cloudy day

Or if the sun shines bright

I just might miss you

Now and then

I don't miss you

'Till the morning fills the air

Or the afternoon is fair

Or the evening light is barely there

I don't miss you

And you know is not a lie

Unless the moon is floating

High above

A perfect midnight sky

I don't miss you

'Till the morning fills the air

Or the afternoon is fair

Or the evening light is barely there

I don't miss you

And you know is not a lie

Unless the moon is floating

High above

A perfect midnight sky

I don't miss you anymore

Unless i close my eyes

Especially open wide

I see

I miss you every day

好好說再見

http://mypaper.pchome.com.tw/chinpang/post/1321561251

「告別」是一種成長方式，想起寵物情人裏面，三高女生小雪童年的寵物小狗Mo Mo離她而去，她一直都無法忘記，到了三高之年包養小男生松本潤，叫他做Mo Mo......

沒有，原來每一次我都沒有好好說再見。

John Coltrane說過：

Life is beautiful.
Life is a struggle.
Life......
is beautiful struggle

我總是struggle，卻忘了部分struggle可以beautiful。

Cry Me A River 2

一直覺得Justin Timberlake 2002年的Cry Me A River 是出色的流行曲，宗教般的intro，氣氛一流，MV裏有個像Britney Spears 的身影，諷刺（當然是諷刺女的！）

You were my sun
You were my earth
But you didn't know all the ways I loved you, no
So you took a chance
And made other plans
But I bet you didn't think that they would come crashing down, no

You don't have to say, what you did,
I already know, I found out from him
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me, all alone
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me, on the phone
Girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
To cry, cry me a river
Cry me a river-er
Cry me a river
Cry me a river-er, yea yea

I know that they say
That somethings are better left unsaid
It wasn't like you only talked to him and you know it
(Don't act like you don't know it)
All of these things people told me
Keep messing with my head
(Messing with my head)
You should've picked honesty
Then you may not have blown it
(Yea..)

You don't have to say, what you did,
(Don't have to say, what you did)
I already know, I found out from him
(I already know, uh)
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
(No chance, you and me)
And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me, all alone
(All alone)
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me, on the phone
(When you call me on the phone)
Girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
(I'm not like them baby)
Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
(It's your turn)
To cry, cry me a river
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river-er
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river-er, yea yea

Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be... leaving

You don't have to say, what you did,
(Don't have to say, what you did)
I already know, I found out from him
(I already know, uh)
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
(No chance, you and me)
And don't it make you sad about it

Cry me a river
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river-er
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river
(You can go on and just)
Cry me a river-er, yea yea

Cry me a river
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river-er
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river
(Cause I've already cried)
Cry me a river-er, yea yea
(Ain't gonna cry no more, yea-yea)

Cry me a river
Cry me a river, oh
Cry me a river, oh
Cry me a river, oh

Cry me a river, oh
(Cry me, cry me)
Cry me a river, oh
(Cry me, cry me)
Cry me a river, oh
(Cry me, cry me)
Cry me a river, oh
(Cry me, cry me)

Cry me a river, oh
(Cry me, cry me)
Cry me a river, oh
(Cry me, cry me)
Cry me a river
(Cry me, cry me)

Cry Me A River 1

Now you say you're lonely
You cried the long night through
Well, you can cry me a river
Cry me a river
I cried a river over you

Now you say you're sorry
For being so untrue
Well, you can cry me a river
Cry me a river
I cried a river over you

You drove me,
Nearly drove me out of my head
While you never shed a tear
Remember?
I remember all that you said
Told me love was to plebeian
Told me you were through with me
Now you say you love me
Well, just to prove you do

Cry me a river
Cry me a river
I cried a river over you

You drove me
Nearly drove me out of my head
While you never shed a tear
Remember?
I remember all that you said
Told me love was to plebeian
Told me you were through with me...
And now you say you love me
Well, just to prove that you do...
Come on! Come on!
Cry me a river...
Cry me a river...
I cried a river over you
I cried a river over you...

怎樣哭才會哭得眼淚足夠成河？我的還不夠吧。

Re-post if you have someone in Heaven... ♥

I wish heaven had a phone so I could hear your voice again.

I thought of you today, but that is nothing new.

I thought about you yesterday, and days before that too.

I think of you in silence, I often speak your name.

All I have are memories & a picture in a frame.

Your memory is a keepsake, from which I'll never part.

God has you in his arms..., I have you in my heart.

2011靠甚麽

來自明報周刊，鄭秀文如是説：

靠天聰不如靠努力，
靠關係不如靠實幹，
靠包裝不如靠内容，
靠捱餓不如靠運動，
靠走運不如靠自強，
靠風水不如靠信念，
靠名牌不如靠自信，
靠排名不如靠内涵，
靠捷徑不如靠征途，
靠男人不如靠自己，
靠迷信不如靠向主。

我不夠愛你

2011年1月21日的東方日報副刊，按滑鼠一下以便閲讀放大版本。

曾經以爲愛不夠，事實上跟夠不夠無關。

尋快樂強人

2011年1月20日的東方日報副刊，按滑鼠一下以便閲讀放大版本。

All The Things You Are

You are the promised kiss of springtime
That makes the lonely winter seem long.
You are the breathless hush of evening
That trembles on the brink of a lovely song.
You are the angel glow that lights a star,
The dearest things I know are what you are.
Some day my happy arms will hold you,
And some day I’ll know that moment divine,
When all the things you are, are mine!

埋頭苦幹的時候需要調劑，偶爾找到Ella Fitzgerald的輕快版本。

因工在身，無法到香港參加朋友有份兒主講的講座環節，講座的籌辦人是您，我說您沒有通知社團中人是選擇而不是錯誤，無需道歉。

我知道您有權選擇我而最後不選擇我，我相信我也有那樣的權利，明明知道我和您之間，是不會有some day的，可是我聼到歌的時候，渴望依舊，中毒太深是事實，只好咬緊牙關面對。

這樣的選擇對自己並無好處，又如何？

Heaven's What I Feel When I'm with You

"If a problem has no solution, it may not be a problem, but a fact - not to be solved, but to be coped with over time." said Shimon Peres.



oooouoooohoooo...mmmm...mmm
love sometimes
can be like destiny....
there's no way to say forever
may not realize your dreams
and love sometimes
is like the blowin' wind
it can take us to wherever
sending us on silent wings
but i have broken
all the rules of love...
i never dreamed that
i could come this far....
and now i'm lost in my emotions
you're becoming my devotion
there's nothing i can do
to stop this love for you...

i was not supposed to fall in love with you
i have someone else....
someone else is loving you
and i was not supposed to
let this love get through
(let love get through)
so let me say for real....
heaven's what i feel
when i'm with you...
(this feeling is forever)
it is forever...
(you make me feel like heaven)
i feel like heaven
(my love is true when i'm with you... ooh...oooh...you...ooo)

how could i have known that in your eyes
(in your eyes) i would find the deepest answer
to the questions of my heart
and how could i have known
that by your side
(by your side)
was the light to fill the darkness
and the shadows of my life
but i have broken all the rules of love
i never dreamed that i could come this far
and now i'm lost in my emotion
you're becoming my devotion
there's nothing i can do
to stop this love for you...

i was not supposed to fall in love with you
i have someone else....
someone else is loving you
and i was not supposed to
tet this love get through
(let love get through)
so let me say for real....
heaven's what i feel....
when i'm with you....
(this feeling is forever)
...ooou..ooou...oooo
(you make me feel like heaven, my love is true, when i'm with you.. ooo...ooo..hoo..hoo)

(heaven....heaven...)
is what i feel when we're together
(heaven....heaven...)
just look in my eyes and you'll see it's come true.....

i was not supposed to fall in love with you
i have someone else....
and someone else is loving you
and i was not supposed to let this love get through
(let love get through)
so let me say for real....
heaven's what i feel
when i'm with you......oouououooo

Dear E

這是Gloria Estefan 於1998年出版專輯的第一首歌，突然發現與其唱My All，不如學Heaven's What I Feel 的去Count the blessings 吧，人生本來苦短，其實不該再容納其他「不必要」的痛苦，例如我沒有別人，但的確有人愛著您。

還是那一句，世界的一切不會因爲一個人的悲傷而改變，正如昨晚看到Shimon Peres所言，可能我愛您並不是問題，是事實，不是解決它，是去面對它。

佳節期間，沒有您的消息（您說我希望我的人生從當時起就再沒有您嘛！）只是想知道您一切安好。

不嫁給最愛

2010年12月29日的明報副刊

My All

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
'Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side

I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of your song
I'd give my all for your love tonight

Baby can you feel me
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight

I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of your song
I'd give my all for your love tonight

I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of your song
I'd give my all for your love tonight
Give my all for your love
Tonight

愛不對場合

2010年12月27日明報副刊。

男人的情史

2010年12月27日明報副刊。

Love is a Losing Game

For you I was a flame
Love is a losing game
Five story fire as you came
Love is a losing game

Why do I wish I never played
Oh what a mess we made
And now the final frame
Love is a losing game

Played out by the band
Love is a losing hand
More than I could stand
Love is a losing hand

Self professed... profound
Till the chips were down
...know you're a gambling man
Love is a losing hand

Though I'm rather blind
Love is a fate resigned
Memories mar my mind
Love is a fate resigned

Over futile odds
And laughed at by the gods
And now the final frame
Love is a losing game

上載這歌的原因是Amy Whithouse 唱得好，懶洋洋的無奈，比她後來專輯裏面的版本好。

Love is a losing game，太陽底下無新事，lose 慣了嗎？一把年紀還有甚麽該不該？跌倒，爬起來，跌倒，爬起來，跌倒，爬起來。

我要我們在一起

風遠遠地吹著　我的臉我的手
我的髮我的心　我的眼睛
你遠遠地呆在　那個城那個路
那個房那個燈　那扇窗口

我靜靜地放著　你給我的CD音樂　當作背景
怎麼唱　都不再煽情

我記得你習慣　閉著眼抱著我
好像我是你的臉　笑嘻嘻
我不知該如何　對你笑對你哭
張著嘴不理你　像個機器

你的世界我的日子　好像沒有誰對誰　發過脾氣
過得太快　來不及

＊唉呦唉呦唉呦唉呦　唉呦
　你說　你說　我們　要不要在一起
　柔情的日子裡　生活得不費力氣
　傻傻看你　只要和你　在一起　＊

Repeat ＊

唉呦唉呦唉呦唉呦　唉呦
我說　我說　我要　我們在一起
柔情的日子裡　愛你不費力氣
傻傻看你　只要和你　在一起

不像現在　只能遙遠地　唱著你

我認識的李泉的作品都很musical，有些歌者適合唱，范曉萱是其中一個。

過得太快，所以來不及面對面地對您一哭二閙？如果可以罵您打您，算不算償還？也許苦了閙了以後，還不是如此這般的希望和您再一起？

您早就告訴過我，我們不能一起，所以我只能遙遠地想起您。

別放大寂寞

原載於2010年12月19日東方日報副刊，也是為了提醒自己:)

舞台劇自療

原載於今日的東方日報副刊，張貼的原因是提醒自己。

愛者自付

原載於2010年11月23日的明報副刊，重點在於最末兩句。

可惜不是您

這一刻　突然覺得好熟悉
像昨天　今天同時在放映
我這句語氣　原來好像你
不就是我們愛過的證據

差一點　騙了自己騙了你
愛與被愛不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一種運氣
但我無法完全交出自己

＊努力為你改變
　卻變不了　預留的伏線
　以為在你身邊　那也算永遠

　彷彿還是昨天
　可是昨天　己非常遙遠
　但閉上我雙眼　我還看得見＊

＃可惜不是你　陪我到最後
　曾一起走　卻走失那路口
　感謝那是你　牽過我的手
　還能感受那溫柔＃

那一段　我們曾心貼著心
我想我更有權利關心你
可能你　已走進別人風景
多希望　也有　星光的投影

REPEAT＊＃＃

感謝那是你　牽過我的手
還能溫暖我胸口

耳邊突然響起這首歌，所以往youtube找，歌詞形容一個女生有了新男朋友人，卻忘不了舊人。

我相信那「可惜」會漸漸淡化，與其記得可惜，「可惜不是你，陪我到最後，曾一起走，卻走失那路口......」，不如選擇感激：「感謝那是你，牽過我的手，還能感受那溫柔。」

想再牽您手一次，因爲牽不夠。

給剩女的情書

原載於今日的東方日報副刊。

最近開始留意健吾的專欄，對胃口。

N.M.P.

一山不能藏二虎，赤西仁離隊以後Kat-tun首張CD的第一首歌，以後Kame就可以一枝獨秀了。

N.M.P. 等於No More Pain，那是否意味著赤西仁離隊以後No More Pain?有趣！

有潛質 = 仲未得

八月，傳聞服務社團來屆領導A有意找我做他的地域代表，當時百感交集，相信自己有材，沒有的是財和資歷，後兩者通常可以抵消前者。

凡出席社團的慈善宴會，地域代表捐錢是理所當然的，向來購物狂如我，累次入不敷支，加上資歷尚淺，妒忌者正好以金錢來攻擊我。只是當各路英雄都如說我有能力，我的虛榮和好勝告訴我，這可是再次耀武揚威的時候，成爲在圈子裏長大而擔任地域代表的第一人，自我思想調節，做好心理準備，接受挑戰。

十月中旬，據聞同門B有意參選未來領導，A跟本地一位鮮有路面的資深領導C打過招呼以後，後者認爲基於政治理由，來屆地域代表和助理地域代表都不應與B同門，並提出數位他心目中的理想人選，A卻之不恭。

刹那間覺得自尊心和虛榮心兵敗如山倒，來年沒有再在圈子裏走來走去的理由，憤怒、灰心...... 然後再發現，C所謂的理想人選，跟B和C根本就是「同路人」，他的政治理由真夠道理，這邊廂，表面不同門私下同路，那邊廂，有人已經前赴後繼替B計劃拉票活動。

證明了有能力但沒有錢和資歷。在服務社團是向上爬不了的， 如果我只希望服務人群，何須名銜和向上爬？朋友認爲我做地域代表是遲早的事，提醒我服務不應該是為了名銜而做，況且太早做了，以後做甚麽呢？

自己有材無財無資歷，所謂材只是潛質而已，聼過一句説話：有潛質就是「仲未得」。

"We have two kinds of morality side by side: one which we preach but do not practice and another which we practice but seldom preach." said Bertrand Russell.