Now You're Not Here

Love was young
We saw beyond a sky that had no limits
Much higher than the highest star
Beyond the furthest planet
We thought that we could change the world
And everything in it
But time ran out of endless hours
Gave into doubt, were we just playing an endless game
That no one ever wins

If I could run away
Hide away
Forget the way I feel
But your memory keeps haunting me
Convincing me it's real
Now you're not here
Now you're not here

Love and hate
Left up to fate
A life we took for granted
We couldn't stop our running from the things we always wanted
No long goodbyes
No tears to cry
And nothing to believe in
But now you're gone
We'll never know a love that's grown
Time took away
All that it gave to the two of us

If I could run away
Hide away
Forget the way I feel
But your memory keeps haunting me
Convincing me it's real
Now you're not here
Now you're not here

When our hearts were young and nights were long
We'd let the morning sun kiss our eyes open
Precious dreams that we had now they are dead and gone
The promises we made have all been broken

If I could run away
Hide away
Forget the way I feel
But your memory keeps haunting me
Convincing me it's real
Now you're not here
Now you're not here

In my arms
In my life
Lovin' you, is just a memory
Now you're not here
Now you're not here
With me now, in my arms, in my mind, in my life

Loving you SHOULD BE a memory.

愛您，「應該」只是我記憶的一部分。

昨晚往港參加社團好友婚宴，站在通往會場的電動樓梯回頭一看，竟然看到您也來了，沒想到我和您都跟新娘子私交甚篤。

有兩個月沒有見您，也很久沒有在這圈子的半公開場合跟您同台吃晚飯，坐在您的斜對面，見您不時抱頭，心想一定是頭疼又來了，因爲在場還有我和您都認識的共同朋友， 由不便多言變成相對無言，碰巧一位資深社團朋友的健談太太坐在身旁，她說朋友很晚才到，便跟她聊個不亦樂乎來解困，此情此境，有事忙比無事忙好。

從幻燈片和音樂錄影帶都看到爽朗的新娘子和感情豐富的新郎幸福滿瀉，是我這麽多年首次見到一顰一笑都是愛，攝影師用心補足，小兩口真情流露，刹那便成為永恒。

我替他倆高興，但我決定不去羡慕，因爲無法羡慕。

跟一對新人道別以後，另一女友人要我順道跟她一起走，她說您送她走就會順路送我走云云，友人下車時，您提議送我到碼頭。東西拉扯的談社團的人和事，忘了問您有沒有頭疼，刹那間那對「我們」又來到碼頭了，「如常」的說聲拜拜，打開車門離開，感覺您的車還在。

我忘了您的車牌號碼，卻手拿一個顔色跟它一樣的手袋，我看到您的時候，試圖努力感受自己看到您還會不會心跳，希望自己會覺得不那麽愛您了，冷不防一聼到這歌又有大堆感受排山倒海，坐在我斜對面，坐在我身邊也好，同台吃飯，應該各自修行吧。

以爲下了眉頭，結果還在心頭。

NOW you SHOULDN'T be here.

您「應該」已經不在這裡了！

愛您，「應該」只是我記憶的一部分。